Medications.. 200mg Less Pregablin

I’m sick of medications. Are they helping or not? I’ve seen the nasty ingredients. I don’t like it. I don’t like this pill. I don’t like that I am not getting better. I’m still in agony and horrific pain.. I’m going to try and come off Pregablin or at least lessen the dosage. I am now taking 200mg of Pregablin around 10AM and that’s it. I am currently on 400mg. I am scared that I will have horrific withdrawal symptoms and be in horror. Right now is the first day of not taking 400mg of Pregablin.. I feel weird, anxiety, ghostly, suicidal, lack of interest in life.. Will I die now? Will I survive now?